Girls

It's always about a girl. Even when there is no girl, it's still about a girl. For me, there is no girl and there hasn't been for a while. Neither am I sure there will ever be.

There have been girls in the past, but they weren't my girl, which in the end, means nothing that there were girls in the past. I wish I could say that there wasn't a girl because I didn't want there to be a girl or that I didn't like the girl, but honestly, no.

These days, I think I have become the girl, waiting for a girl to make a move on me. But the girls never make a move on me, because I am not a girl and they are not lesbian.

So for now, I am girlless, waiting for the next girl I can do nothing with. Maybe just stare at, make awkward conversations with, and write blogs referring to her as "the girl."